Hours

an hour have passed since you were gone
but gone where?
beyond this roof?
or to the arms of that ugly old lover?
who knew all the lies that you cover
from my silly little back
but, oh! i knew it all along
when was dark at night,
and you came back home singing the same old song ...

some people asked me why did i stay
when we both knew that what was left
were lies, and secrets and lovers hidden all over the world
why did i stay if we didn't even had words to say
or poems to tell
or tears to shed

im not a saint, you know?
im not the one that sits still waiting for the husband to arrive
but you never saw that in me, don't you?
not even a woman, but a sacred motherly loving wife
but i was different, you see
you were surprised when i found out what you've done
and didn't got on my knees and cried

maybe that's why you left
or maybe, why i made you leave
because i was never a challange but a challanger
i wanted to know, how far had you gone
in order to be setted free

an hour have passed and still i don't care
because, you see
once a murderer, always a murderer
and now that you're gone
you'll be with me forever and ever
for me to remind you, that i was never a challange but a challanger
and you lost the challange





~ Siddie Von Dietrich.

The Decision

Well, today is the day… today i have to decide if i want to continue my life like this of if i want to move foward. the life i’m living now is boring, but safe, the life i’m going to live from this day on, is going to be rocky, nd harder, but at least i’m going to be free … i wish i could have both … i can’t have both, i have to choose

The Thought

I’ve been thinking a lot… i honestly want the fuck out :D

And i mean it… I need to see new places, i need to travel! So i decided im quitting my job and I’m out to the road, first stop, Paraná, then i want to go to Rosario, i want to go to that AMAZING museum on Cordoba.. The one i went when i was in the Scouts, “El Museo Polifacetico” dksnlknvlkdfnbfkbn I’m so exaited about this whole adventure .. OH MYYYY saklfsadlkvnsdlvndlvjkn REALLYY

 

I want to go to so many places … and i’m going to do it

that’s a promise :)

 

Siddie

Golden Fish

 

Some people say that goldfishes have a  3 second memory span … sometime i wish i had a 3 second memory span,

IT WOULD BE BEAUTIFUL!

To forget everything, to find everything new, to always be surprised… maybe the quote “ignorance it’s bliss” it’s true, maybe it is a bliss to live in complete ignorance of what you feel, i HONESTLY wish i was a fucking ignorant cloud-walker silly girl, with not too many lights on on the head. Being smart it’s not so good sometimes, being “down to earth” haven’t been useful lately but rather a pain in the god-damned ass.

i wish i was dumb sometimes, a fucking goldfish.

 

Siddie

Tired

Ok, i’m through with this.

With everything.

Nothings seems to work right, absolutly nothing.

Does it even matter how hard i try to keep things working over rocky ground? Does it even matter how am i killing my self to keep everyone happy?

Does it even matter how hard am i trying?

It looks like no, it doesn’t fucking matter at all.

Is it that hard to be happy? What the fuck am i doing wrong? i mean, there has to be SOMETHING i am doing wrong here, because if it’s not the case, please put a bullet on my brain. it’s ridiculous. THIS WHOLE THING IT’S FUCKING RIDICULOUS!

 

that’s it, i’m done.

 

 

Siddie