How low can you get??
you disgust me

my one mistake was that i never let you down...

you are banned

XD

you think that you can control it all
and you are not
you think that i'm such a naive little girl
but i'm not
game on bitch
i'm scared
but you should

Hours

an hour have passed since you were gone
but gone where?
beyond this roof?
or to the arms of that ugly old lover?
who knew all the lies that you cover
from my silly little back
but, oh! i knew it all along
when was dark at night,
and you came back home singing the same old song ...

some people asked me why did i stay
when we both knew that what was left
were lies, and secrets and lovers hidden all over the world
why did i stay if we didn't even had words to say
or poems to tell
or tears to shed

im not a saint, you know?
im not the one that sits still waiting for the husband to arrive
but you never saw that in me, don't you?
not even a woman, but a sacred motherly loving wife
but i was different, you see
you were surprised when i found out what you've done
and didn't got on my knees and cried

maybe that's why you left
or maybe, why i made you leave
because i was never a challange but a challanger
i wanted to know, how far had you gone
in order to be setted free

an hour have passed and still i don't care
because, you see
once a murderer, always a murderer
and now that you're gone
you'll be with me forever and ever
for me to remind you, that i was never a challange but a challanger
and you lost the challange





~ Siddie Von Dietrich.

The Decision

Well, today is the day… today i have to decide if i want to continue my life like this of if i want to move foward. the life i’m living now is boring, but safe, the life i’m going to live from this day on, is going to be rocky, nd harder, but at least i’m going to be free … i wish i could have both … i can’t have both, i have to choose

The Thought

I’ve been thinking a lot… i honestly want the fuck out :D

And i mean it… I need to see new places, i need to travel! So i decided im quitting my job and I’m out to the road, first stop, Paraná, then i want to go to Rosario, i want to go to that AMAZING museum on Cordoba.. The one i went when i was in the Scouts, “El Museo Polifacetico” dksnlknvlkdfnbfkbn I’m so exaited about this whole adventure .. OH MYYYY saklfsadlkvnsdlvndlvjkn REALLYY

 

I want to go to so many places … and i’m going to do it

that’s a promise :)

 

Siddie

Golden Fish

 

Some people say that goldfishes have a  3 second memory span … sometime i wish i had a 3 second memory span,

IT WOULD BE BEAUTIFUL!

To forget everything, to find everything new, to always be surprised… maybe the quote “ignorance it’s bliss” it’s true, maybe it is a bliss to live in complete ignorance of what you feel, i HONESTLY wish i was a fucking ignorant cloud-walker silly girl, with not too many lights on on the head. Being smart it’s not so good sometimes, being “down to earth” haven’t been useful lately but rather a pain in the god-damned ass.

i wish i was dumb sometimes, a fucking goldfish.

 

Siddie

Tired

Ok, i’m through with this.

With everything.

Nothings seems to work right, absolutly nothing.

Does it even matter how hard i try to keep things working over rocky ground? Does it even matter how am i killing my self to keep everyone happy?

Does it even matter how hard am i trying?

It looks like no, it doesn’t fucking matter at all.

Is it that hard to be happy? What the fuck am i doing wrong? i mean, there has to be SOMETHING i am doing wrong here, because if it’s not the case, please put a bullet on my brain. it’s ridiculous. THIS WHOLE THING IT’S FUCKING RIDICULOUS!

 

that’s it, i’m done.

 

 

Siddie

Bloody Sunday ♥

with hubby thinking what to do .__.
we are OLD boring people xD

All My Loving

Close your eyes and I'll kiss you,
Tomorrow I'll miss you;
Remember I'll always be true.
And then while I'm away,
I'll write home ev'ry day,
And I'll send all my loving to you.

I'll pretend That I'm kissing
the lips I am missing
And hope that my dreams will come true.
And then while I'm away,
I'll write home ev'ry day,
And I'll send all my loving to you.

All my loving I will send to you.
All my loving, darling I'll be true.

Close your eyes and I'll kiss you,
Tomorrow I'll miss you:
Remember I'll always be true.
And then while I'm away,
I'll write home ev'ry day,
And I'll send all my loving to you

All my loving I will send to you.
All my loving darling I'll be True.
All my loving All my loving ooh
All my loving I will send to you









Siddie

Reporting From Parana ♥

pretty city
it's just like san anotnio de areco
THEY LOOK SO ALIKE IT'S STRANGE!
HAHAHA

today meeting MEGAMEETING with lady Emilena ♥

im exited!

im with my hubby on my side, he is playing a really BORING!-looking game ¬¬
PAY ME SOME ATTENTION!!! ¬¬


ok .. nothing left to say! :)


Siddie


PS: im happy in love ♥

Let Me Be Your Valentine, Saint Valentine

Love's the only one worth dying for.
Build me up to knock me down, I'm all yours.

Entre Rios, Te Amare Por Siempre ♥

well

emmm
i have new guy
life it's REALLY pretty so far ♥

1,2,3 Proving, proving…

 

one night stands are less complicated than i thought

now i have to learn how to detach my self from the situation,  and see every possible fuck just like what it is, A FUCK XD

 

Siddie

The Sign

 

 

…. and i got my sign … dress in the peculiar dress of a perverted online chat with even MORE perverted people … oh yes! only 2 couñld stand out in the crowd, one is a hot blond that calls me beautifull, killer body from far away (FUCKING CORDOBA) and this one particular guy im going to meet tomorrow… yes .

When life gives you lemons, go find someone with papercuts, isn’t it?

xD

 

Siddie

The Pain

i wish i could kill every intch love i feel right now
i wish i had that memories-eraser machine from "Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind"

i reached the point that i just don't care what could happen to me anymore
a couple of days ago i was scared about so many things, because i wanted my well-being to be with him, to be ok, to be able to smile.

no i just don't care, i could die, i could have a really slowly death and i wouldn't even care.

maybe it's a sign, a REALLY painful sign

i wish i wasn't faking all the smiles shown to everybody today
and the day before
and the day before that one
when i was sincerly ... ok

i wish i could sleep without crying in silence every night
i wish i could have you out of my every thought

i wish ... but, wishing is not enought, isn't it?

and so life goes on

yesterday, april 9th 2010, all my world fell apart . i found my self alone, dealing with the biggest pain of the last months, just one year after my friend's death, my boyfriend left me, for what he said was to find him self .

i don't blame him for the feelings he feel regarding that, and i cannot find the way to blame my self either because of that.

it hurts that he just gave up on me in such a terrible way.

for the past year i had to deal with the death of 3 relatives, 1 of my friends comitted suicide and i lost 2 jobs. i had to deal with the fact that i was so hurt that i couldn't handle it on my own. at least not anymore.

he says that i didn't loose my self in this past 2 years that we've been together. what he didn't know was that i was already and forever lost . i died last year and he didn't noticed it . i suffered and crawled the lowest that i ever crawled. i cried so many tears that my eyes are forever dry.

now, almost 24 hours after he decided to leave to find him self, i find my self realizing that he never understood how deep my wounds were, how hard it was for me to hide my pain sometimes to be ok when i saw him.

maybe it's for the better, i don't know, i needed him to be understanding with me and i really thought he knew me well, but it looks like he didn't know me a bit. he knew what i showed outside my painfull shell, he never gone deeper to find my wounds and make me feel that maybe those could heal.

i wish that he could knew me better... as good as i know his gentle though young heart.

babe, if you ever read this i want you to know that if you felt that you lost your self in this 2 years it wasn't my fault. we have to deal with the decisions that we make, and yours was to make me happy whatever was the cost. i only wanted your love, that's all i ever wanted from you ... it's sad to find that you misleaded your way to love and your lost your self in the way.

i hope you find the one you were, even though the one i met was is one i love right now.

right know, heart-broken and suffering, i decided to never love again. to never give my self like i did this past two years. i gave my love to right person for me. and he'll have it until the day i die. no-one else will ever have an intch of my love, and if that means to stay alone for the rest of my life, so be it. im not afraid as i loved like never loved before. and like i never will.


So long for now, my love

Sid

fuck it

i just did a test to check mental illneses, emmm it says that im as crazy as a duck! OMG, really, it just doesn't make any sense! one says that im an antisocial type of person but then it says that im histrionic and that i loveee to seek for attention ... am i that complicated??

i.want.my.INOCENCE.back.and.if.you.can't.GIVE.it.to.me.i.will.cut.you.down.and.i.will.run.you.THROUGHT

feliz arpi año :)