The Pain

i wish i could kill every intch love i feel right now
i wish i had that memories-eraser machine from "Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind"

i reached the point that i just don't care what could happen to me anymore
a couple of days ago i was scared about so many things, because i wanted my well-being to be with him, to be ok, to be able to smile.

no i just don't care, i could die, i could have a really slowly death and i wouldn't even care.

maybe it's a sign, a REALLY painful sign

i wish i wasn't faking all the smiles shown to everybody today
and the day before
and the day before that one
when i was sincerly ... ok

i wish i could sleep without crying in silence every night
i wish i could have you out of my every thought

i wish ... but, wishing is not enought, isn't it?